i am growing more and more anxious as the day goes on. i can feel it welling up inside of me, and i'm trying VERY hard not to take out my 'feelings' on others. as i was showering, (that happens to be the only time i ever get to think strait), i realized that it's not because i am going to have a house full of people tomorrow, not the fact that it will cost a big chunk of change to feed those said people, or the mess that will follow from having company all weekend. it's not having to pack up my mother-in-laws things to ship to her. it's not even that my kids are starting school again on monday. it's the fact that once they start school, i will have to be a grown up again, and help provide for this household. it's not "all on me" since randy works too, but it's working AND running the kids around AND doing homework AND the housework AND grocery shopping AND all of those things that you can take at a leisurely pace during the summer months. august is always a time of transition. the difference is, this time, i feel the gravity of it before it all starts.
i will focus on all of those good things that God is throwing our way, including quality time with friends and family, good food, the chance to shop at costco for the first time in a few months, someone ELSE teaching my kids phonics and the fall just being around the corner, since that happens to be my favorite season. i think i will have a cup of coffee, and then get going... i will post some pics of our weekend at some point i'm sure.