taking a day off from drama

i have soooo enjoyed today. i got my chores done, minus one. (my brand new "weed hacker" broke. i've used it once and now it decided to take a break too, i guess).
made it to the store. decided to splurge a little and buy some flowers and wine. why not, right?
tried to keep the leaves out of the pool for a couple of hours. thank goodness i had help. ate a really yummy meal that i got to cook with a good friend. even went for desert. it was low fat, but i think i made up for it with the dinner... meatballs are NOT fat free. i needed a day like today. all feels like it's right with the world. FINALLY!

now i'm off to slumber. goodnight ya'll.

being comfortable in the silence

i'm not good at it.
if i have any kind of down time, i try to fill it up with meaningless myspace games, cleaning, watching food network and drooling, wishing i had the money to go to a gourmet store so i could make it too...

it seems that after this week, i would want to just curl up in bed and sleep.
i would like to, somewhere deep inside me, but sleep doesn't ever seem to come. even nap time eludes me. someone ALWAYS calls or rings the door bell, the dogs bark, or the kids need something that they have been capable of getting for themsleves for years now.
sigh...

seeking God out during those times seems to be the last thing i do. i'll try picking up my Bible again, and soaking up the joy that He always gives me when i am bone dry. oh man am i dry. the redding heat and wind hasn't helped. i do find it funny that i pray for silence when the world around me is spinning out of control, but when i have it, i don't know what to do with it. weird.

under attack

satan is pulling out the big guns. i can't go into details, but the miller house is in a serious battle, and we keep getting hit in waves. 3 huge things in the last 2 and 1/2 days. not to mention the other trivial stuff that i wrote about eariler this week. it's funny how quickly life puts things in perspective.

please please please pray for us.

providence and dutch bros.?

yup! i do believe in providence.

it was for a day like today that God put a dutch bros. by my house.

i'll set the scene for you:

~i haven't slept well for at least three weeks, so i'm a LITTLE on edge.

~i'm not very nice in the mornings anyways without coffee.

~we ran out, so i was planning on re-heat this morning.

~i woke up to, "honey i have bad news". (the side story here, is that randy was knealing next to conor who was laying on the couch, and my first thought was, "oh man, conor's sick, so i will go grab a cup of coffee, and then figure out what to do next...)

~randy, "we're out of coffee........and i dumped the re-heat because i wanted to make you a fresh pot."

~me, "you dumped the re-heat?"

he stayed for about 2 minutes, then was like "uh, i gotta go..."

so i battled through the morning, and i mean battled. then dropped the kiddos off at the bus stop and made a mad dash to dutch bros. to grab my carmely soy goodness. i also got to see derrick, "hi derrick", and a poster on the window for the myriad concert coming up soon. i looked at the picture of randy, and thought to myself, 'you are so lucky buddy'.

it has been SUCH a monday!!!

my phone broke. i made like 3 mistakes @ work, including saying "SHIT!" when mistake number 2 was happening, (in front of a patient), my brain hasn't been working correctly, and i was informed by verizon that i will be paying full price for a my new phone since i used my free upgrade to get my mother-in-law her new phone for christmas, that she proceeded to drop in the pool a couple of months later. plus i can't drop her line for another year and 3.2 months or that will cost $165 more... grrrrr!!!! tomorrow can only be better right?

so here's a pic of my new phone that is INSURED!!! i don't make the same mistake twice.

happy sunday!

that seems to be a common greeting in the miller house, once the smell of coffee fills the house and the kids have had their initial morning hug attack. as a young girl i used to cringe when Sunday rolled around because it meant waking up early to sit on uncomfortable pew's at the Methodist church we attended, the weekly chore i had of picking up dog poop, and school resuming the next day... yeah, my kids have such a hard life... the only time they pick up dog poop is when they sass a little too much.

ANYWAYS! i love Sunday's now. we start with a really good cup of coffee, or two, followed by omelets, conversations with the kids, a couple of chores just to make Monday roll a little smoother, and then we get to do whatever the heck we want. we usually fill up the day spending time with friends which is mostly for my benefit. it's called FELLOWSHIP people!!! plus, we actually want to go to church once the evening time rolls around. thank you Nate for having the guts to tell people it's o.k. to worship God whatever time of day. it doesn't have to be at the crack of dawn. i find that He get's more of me when i'm actually awake.

so happy Sunday ya'll. see you in a few hours...

weird...

i feel like i woke up in the twilight zone.
i guess i fell asleep around 9 last night, or so i was told.
i felt drugged or just extreamly tired from such a long week.
i woke up @ 5am, then dozed back off for a couple of hours,
and that's when the weirdness starts.
there is already some crazy things going on during the day, but then it meshed perfectly with my dream cycle and so now i'm not sure what's real and what's not.
i hope that i figure it out before i yell at people for things that didn't really happen :)